Saturday, October 3, 2009

Toes

I've been doing so well for so long, sometimes, briefly I'll forget that my spinal chord is pocked from the gnawing of my immune system's past "episodes".

During Tuesday evening, I started negative noticing my right foot more than I typically have during the past few years. Wednesday morning, I was aware that I had toes on my right foot, but it was like they were not attached to my foot. The balls of my right foot had significantly reduced feeling -- negative feeling. Walking seemed like my foot was a sponge. Placing my step was a mental exercise, visual guidance was important so as not to trip, fall. I realized that on Sunday, I had strange feelings of emotional waves, briefly, unexplained. Monday, I got choked up at the sight of a television commercial while eating breakfast -- I hadn't considered it at the time, but I remembered that sometimes during previous "episodes" of civil warfare, it wasn't unusual to more easily get emotional.

Thursday morning, I awoke fully aware of my right foot and my toes, but some numbness persisted. I was glad that my toes felt attached again. Abbey and I went to the Y after work on Thursday. I had not gotten much physical activity of late, working longer hours and remodeling our new home and all. I rode 7.62 miles during 22 minutes with the bike to 12 resistance. I couldn't believe it.

When we got home from the Y, I felt pretty good, but I struggled putting my right foot in front of my left. I asked Abbey not to walk behind me up the stairs out of concern that I might trip, fall and knock her down rolling.

I thought about walking with a cane again today, not that I need to use one at this time. My walking is better than Wednesday now.

Made a first draft 2009 mix:

Track Title Artist Album
Waitin' For A Superman Iron and Wine Around The Well [Disc 1]
Don't Forget Me Case, Neko Middle Cyclone
Never Had Nobody Like You Ward, M Hold Time
Belated Promise Ring Iron and Wine Around The Well [Disc 2]
Whole Lotta Losin' Monsters Of Folk Monsters Of Folk
Quiet Dog Bite Hard Mos Def The Ecstatic
Roses Mos Def Feat. Georgia Anne Muldrow The Ecstatic
The Palace At 4 am Newman, Carl 'A.C.' Get Guilty
Overjoyed Circulatory System Signal Morning
Nothing To Hide Yo La Tengo Popular Songs
Deeper Down Wilco Wilco (The Album)
Such Great Heights Iron and Wine Around The Well [Disc 1]
82 Onewasjohnny Todd Singles
Avalon Or Someone Very Similar Yo La Tengo Popular Songs
While You Wait For The Others Grizzly Bear Veckatimest
Summertime Clothes Animal Collective Merriweather Post Pavilion
The Right Place Monsters Of Folk Monsters Of Folk